Thank you

Hello,my dear dear friends,
I feel I have neglected everyone here, some of you have helped me a lot during times that I don't think I could have helped myself. Thank you, to all of you...
My life has changed quite a lot, in a good sense, I have moved out of the hellhole, I am living with a beautiful, smart, funny guy who gently tries to make me see me for what I am. In some parts he has succeeded, in others I am not quite sure anybody can succeed. The point is that I am changed, in what, I do not exactly know, but I am changed, I am on my way to who I think I was supposed to be, if not for all this chaos that has happened in my life.
I wish you could see the way he is, how beautiful, caring...he is a wonderful human being. I try to battle this feeling that has been creeping up on me that says he deserves someone else, but I am not sure how much of it can be put out as a false thought. Why do I still feel as if I don't deserve? His mother is a wonderful woman who loves me and treats me as her own daughter. He studied psychology...I feared that once he knew it all he will run in the other way as fast as possible... And guess what, he didn't, he stayed rooted to the place... Dear human beings...he has given me what no one else could...he gave me roots, he taught me the sense of a home... I cannot begin to thank him enough...
I have recently come upon the discovery that my father is alive...my father whom I thought dead for the past few years...what do I do with that information? I have no idea...but what I do know is that I will manage.. I can proudly say that MIA, SI have gone from my life entirely, with Ana...that is something else, I can still hear her voice, but that also is a faint ghost of the scream that used to be heard...
I need to hear from you...all of you that still read this post...can you please do that? my mail is never_b@yahoo.com...please do feel free to e-mail me...if you need someone whom you can talk to, I know I may not be of much help, but at least you can talk to me :)
I hold you near my heart...Thank you,
PME